Also, it’s really weird cause when I look in the mirror, I see almost no changes, but when I see a picture of myself, I feel I look entirely different than I used to. I always convince myself it’s just a good picture or a good angle, but I don’t know. I hope I’ve changed. I hope it’s noticeable. I hope all the work I put in has paid off. I’m scared that my laziness and bad eating lately will start to show and my work will go to waste. That’s all I keep thinking about. I can’t go backwards. I need to break through this and make some major changes so I can start feeling more positive about this again and finally prove to myself that I can overcome this weight- literally and mentally.
Can’t seem to stay on track lately, at all. It really sucks that I’ve restarted so many bad habits, but I’ve been feeling SO guilty lately and I really need to stick to breaking my habits and create a routine of healthy eating and exercise all over again. *Sigh*